I’m staying in on Halloween. Here’s why.
The simple truth is that my creative work is in an "addictive" flow state. The pull of the studio is stronger than the pull of the party right now. But this choice always brings up a "nagging feeling"—the echo of my "Side A ghost." Am I choosing this, or am I avoiding?
My mind flashes back to my old corporate life—to feeling "unwelcome" at a sales conference and self-imposing an exile. It flashes back to being a teen with no money for parties, forced into a solitude where I learned to build my own worlds.
So, am I the product of that past, or am I an Architect making a new choice? The reality is, the "sameness" of a big party doesn't serve my needs right now. It doesn't feed the primal Werewolf in me, and it doesn't feed the intimate Lumberjack who just wants a quiet connection.
This video is my log. It's a dissection of the rational choice I'm making tonight, and the old, traumatic ghosts that it still kicks up.
It’s a contradictory, but very human, place to be. Let me know if this resonates.
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